Baby Papaya

Baby Papaya we are waiting for you!
I can't stop thinking of you and how I can't wait to hold you, love you, dote on you, play with you, shop for you and just be a family of 3. I don't know what else to do but keep talking about you. The only way I keep hope is to think of you, cry for you, ache for you and pray for you. I am not a perfect person and I know that my faith and hope should be in God but it is a daily struggle that I sometimes don't work at each day. 

I have so many questions but there is only one answer for all of them. Keep my eyes and heart focused on God. No matter how hard it is, I must continue to try each day.

This is mostly a post for myself to get out what I have been thinking for the last few weeks. I am not a writer so it may not make sense but just wanted to share. 

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week in the United States and my sister shared a blog post with me that I would like to share with all of you. 
Can you Imagine?

Be Blessed.

HAWAII!!!

A few weeks ago we received the biggest blessing 

of going to Hawaii for a vacation. We took this as

 a chance to reconnect in our marriage, in our friendship

 and in our faith. We were able to let go of the 

stress and emotional roller coaster of the last year

 and fully relax and let go! It was fantastic! I

 wanted to share some of our memories and highlights

 of our trip. It was the best most relaxing trip we 

have enjoyed together in a long time! We have been 

on vacations before but this one truly allowed us 

to be us, individually and together. 

Our first full day in Maui!

Supper on the beach, Dukes Restaurant!

Surfing--Josh's first time.

Ka'annapli beach stretch- beautiful.

An amazing view of the ocean, lava rock and a blow hole!

 Baby Papaya wherever you are--Daddy is waiting to take you to see the ocean! 

He is holding your hand, waiting to see your smile and giggle when the waves hit your toes! 

Our last night on the beach- amazing trip!

 A sunrise that my husband and I woke up at 3:00am, Josh drove

3 hours to the top of a mountain to take in this amazing view! Pretty incredible. God's beautiful work at hand!

As we were driving on the Road to Hana in Maui, we saw a random sign (wish I had gotten a picture of it) that 

said Baby Papaya with an arrow. Josh and I decided 

from here on out that Baby Papaya is our little ones 

name until we get to meet him/her! 

We so can't wait to take you ona holiday babe! We can't wait to see your smile, your eyes light up, hear your giggle and take family pictures! You are already the light of our lives even though we have never met! 

Love your mommy and daddy.

Be blessed!